Odd how some things hurt.

I've been doing really well lately even when af showed up this month I didn't go into my usual depression. All sorts of reminders that I should have another child have been popping up lately. I haven't been hurt by them. I've even been able to hold babies. But then today reading a thread on homemade Christmas gifts someone mentions a Nov 2006 mommy and I fall apart. November 2006 I should have been made mommy again.

T-4

He he he 4 more days of work 4 more days of work! I have short timers in a major way. I just can't belive that this time next week I'll be saying tommorow is my last day of work for who knows how long. No more getting up before the sun, no more making sure I lay my work clothes out at night, no more commute!!! I have a million things I want to do with Logan, there are playdates and activities on the days I used to work. I can volenture at Logan's school. I have a ton of house projects I want to do too. Oh and I get a week sans husband in a few weeks. Which means I can get the house clean and it will stay that way long enought for me to enjoy it. I guess you can just say I'm excited.

Weekend...

Friday Krista and I took the kids to Sesame place. It was a ball a bit more crowed then I had expected but still fun. Pictures to follow later. I just have to comment on the irony of the rainstorm. We are at a WATER park, everyone is walking around in bathing suits, when the rain started people literally screamed and ran for cover. WTH 5 minutes ago you were in a pool? Darn rain did keep us from getting on the Elmo fish ride that we had been waiting on for 10 mins. Let me tell you a 3 year old does not understand that rain closes rides, and when there are two 3 year olds to react to each other its worse. We went back over to the big sprinkler area after that where we stayed till we left. They loved it, Logan so much that he didnt bother to tell me he needed to poop...ewww..Thats about when we decided to roll on home.


Saturday Ahh I got to sleep in till 11am!!!! Did nothing all afternoon. Then I took Logan over to my parents around 6. We met up with Sean and Angela for dinner. Went back to their place to hang out.

Sunday. Went with Mom and Dad to visit Grand Mom. She was awake and responsive, that is a big deal. Mom fed her lunch we talked at her with and occasional comment back from her. Logan ran around her room like a mad man laughing his head off. Apparently this was awesome medicine. Later that afternoon Grand mom asked to be moved out of bed to her chair. Again this is a big deal, we got the call telling us this while over at my Aunts for the family picnic. Logan and Nathan (cousin age 7) played all day. Little man passed out as soon as we were in the car. It was a nice day I got to talk with nearly everyone in the family.

This week I'm working a lot. My co-worker is on vacation so I have to cover the whole week. The nice thing is I'm dialing in from home on Mon, Thur, Fri. Only going into the office on Tues and Wed. I figure I can get an extra 12 or so hours which is great.

Oh and there are only 5 more office days!!!

How to make a profit!

I listed a little outdoor playset on craigslist and my Mom's board yesterday. It's a great little set that Logan LOVED but is just to big for anymore. Mom got it and another larger set for Logan over 2 years ago for $35. Well I listed the little one for $50 figuring if I didn't get any bites I'd just lower the price. Well no sooner had I posted then the offers started coming in. I got 6 offers yesterday, sold it to the first requester. Shes coming to get it today! It was the easiest $50 I've made in a long time. And to top it off I know the woman I'm selling it to she and her cousin (who I know) are coming over to get it I'm going to ask them if they want to look over the pile of toys I want to sell. Maybe just maybe I'll unload a bunch more stuff.


Preschool, I talked to a very close preschool on Sat, its a Tues/Thurs program for 3 hours. Good sounding program, and not that I need it but they offer after care. for $4 an hour, which could be nice if I decide to get a small part time job. Anyway she said that she was 95% sure that the morning class was full, well she just called and theres one opening left!!! Logan and I are off to check it out in a few mins.

Saturdays "cleaning" adventure...aka how to fill a dumpster.

I was recruited to help my sitter empty her Grandfather in laws house after he moved out. Kandra (sitter) and her dh are buying the house. The men in the family were doing the moving truck part of the adventure leaving us women folk back in MD. All I have to say is OMG how can anyone live that way and have so much trash/junk/crap. I don't think they ever threw anything out. Everything was just piled up pell mell in the basement which was wet! So everything was mildewed and musty. There was a ton of what was once nice baby stuff down there too. I just kills me. We worked from 10-12 took a lunch break then worked till 3:30 I had a B-day party to go to with Logan. We went back over a 7 and worked till 9. Oh and by the way Kandras "best friend" didn't see fit to show up till 8:45. We filled the 20 foot long, 6 foot tall dumpster, used up a 50 pack box of contractors bags and piled at ton of stuff on a trailer. and that was only half the basement!!! The entire time I was down there I'm thinking my MIL's house is going to be soooo much worse than this. Kandra was so happy to have me there to help, thanked me lots, and then I told her when it comes time to clean out my MIL's house she will be the first person I call. I was tired yesterday but came home and did a bunch of stuff around here. I guess I was motivated. I'm so sore today. Currently Logan is upstairs having a "I don't want to nap" fit, followed my a "I want my blanket" fit cause he tossed it on the floor and still (thankfully) wont get out of bed till i open the door. I'm so tore right now I hate to let him cry for me and not go to him but I know at this point its a test to see what he can get away with. He's been fighting me on naps about 50% of the time the past few weeks, Kandra and Mitch have no problems getting him to go down.

I've been thinking more and more about the full time sahm thing. I have to say I'm still a bit nervous about the money thing being as I've never not had an income of my own. But I'm also really excited I'll have so much more time to do things with Logan and actually get some more projects around the house done. One downside is our eating out habit will have to stop, we eat out a lot multiple times a week mostly because we are lazy. I'll realy have to meal plan, I was looking in the freezer last night looks to me like there is 2-3 weeks worth of dinner stuff in there now. Ok now I'm just babbleing and need to get out of ear shot of Logan. Till next time.

The big work decision...

For those of you that don't know yesterday afternoon I was informed that the company needs my position to be full time again..bla bla bla... We are offering you the option to return full time. We would love to have you..bla.. we are very backlogged.. bla. You get the idea, oh and you have until close of business Friday to decide. Gee thanks for the notice, all 24 hours.

After mulling it over, thinking about it hard, and having a very short discussion with Mitch...

Mitch: So have you made a decision?
Angela: I don't want to go back to work full time.
Mitch: What are the monthly bills? Can we afford this?
Angela: Yes, I figured it all up last year. It will be tighter, less eating out etc.
Mitch: Do the math and get me an actual number. I'll support you in what ever decision you make. I just want a hard number so I know .


So I did the math, and after all the bills are paid inculding estimated food and credit card bills we will have money left over for those unexpected things. So 30 mins ago I told work. I will work for the rest of Aug. I do intend on looking for another part time job but I'm not to pressed. Maybe this will be the chance for me to look for a job I really like.